Broccoflower

Hello there. :)

Decided to blog even though I have my history and accounts homework, shall just leave that aside first.

The first monthly test is coming in 2 weeks time and I'm not prepared yet. I shall start revising soon. I seriously don't want to fail any of the new subjects. Failing your first monthly test is just so out of the league. I had the intention of reading history but before I reached the 5th page, I slept. Now, how's biology going to kill me?


and, Physics is seriously a pain in the ass. Jeez.




You disappoint me. I thought maybe I could patch things up but nah. I've never expected the beautiful and awesome person I used to picture in my mind changed, just like that. Its not that I'm thick skin or whatever but, you've really lost a true friend. I didn't see this coming at all. I loved you so but I guess I was just being foolish thinking that I've finally found the one. I practically shared my whole life with you and now? sighs.


This few days, it got me thinking, maybe I should just isolate myself.



I've hurt myself.

Some days, I feel broke inside but I wouldn't admit,
Some times, I just wanna hide because I have nobody to face.

20/2/11

happy belated sweet 16 birthday, shyns.

Relinquish

Its time to let loose and let it go, girl.

Think, Re-think, Over-think

Pistanthrophobia
the fear of trusting someone.


I'm lost.


Why is it just so hard for me to get over this sentiment? One moment, I feel ecstatic and the next thing I know, when something absurd happens, my mood is totally ruined.

My mind is scattered

Heart's, empty

Dreams, shattered

Soul, uninspired;

tomorrow is going to be a brand new day. :)

Caught up with my fellow ex-classmates reminiscing about the past in school just now. All of us went into different classes even though we were in the same high school. All the bonds we used to have were broken. It reminded me how much I missed primary school where things used to be much, much easier.

Let Love Pass By

Time passed by and my feelings faded swiftly. I don't know whether if that's a good thing or a bad thing but that's that.

Stop making assumptions :)











and you, you Changed a lot.

Nitwit.

I'm coming home, I'm coming home,
tell the world that I'm coming home. :)

The thoughts of you can't stop spinning in my mind. I don't know what's wrong with me. Is it wrong keeping false hopes alive? Is it time for me to let go of the 'what ifs' and start facing reality? Why can't I just clear my mind and pay attention on what I strive? Thing is, there is a side of me that is reluctant to let go.

You are driving me nuts. Maybe I should just start being realistic and endure the pain. Nah, it's easier said than done. I just hope that as time pass, the feelings will eventually fade away. :)

Infatuation

I don't know what made me think about it, but I just did. This past few days, I've been thinking a lot about you. I remember teasing and laughing about you last time. After that day, everything changed, my impression towards you changed too. You made me move on. I didn't expect myself to move on that fast, I've been indulge in reminiscence before this. The lingering thoughts I used to have every night was gone, and now, you left me utterly confused ; baffled.

Am I doing the right thing? Even if I'm not, I couldn't stop myself, at least not for now. I shall let my brain decide, what's right and what's wrong. Why did you make me land myself into such a deep hole? I don't wish for anything to happen but I wish you would have me by your side.


You are extraordinary.


What am I thinking? When will I realize that even though love is present, as how much I'm attracted to you, I'll never catch your eye. I'll never be the one who you're waiting for.

"I'll always be the one in the background, the shadow beyond doubt."

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like a bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy every night,
Dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild,

fool.

I'm going to wait but I'm not going to keep my hopes up, at least for now.
Stop stealing my heart.

Huat ah!

; decided to blog even though I've theory to do.



It's been a while since I update my blog. Happy CNY! I guess I've put on a few kilos this week because I just can't stop eating.