LALALALALALALA.

Yo! :) Haha

I'm a happy girl.



Firstly, BERBATOV SCORED A HAT TRICK YESTERDAY! :) After that few draws, its happy to finally see ManUnited winning. Last season, Berbatov used to be very disappointing but this season? He is doing well! Really well. Imma proud of that guy! Glory glory man united! :) I've seen a few Man.U fans supporting other clubs. screw them la. I've been a man.united fan since std4 :D

My uncle bought berbatov's jersey right after he was signed last season, and after wearing it for a while he stopped wearing because berbatov was a let down but i guess, he should be very proud now! :)



And next, I PASSED MY GRADE 8 PRACTICAL EXAM. I WASSSSS SO HAPPPPPEH LA CAN.

i was starting to take my nap and suddenly my cousin came to my room and woke me up because my mother was calling me. so i just went down.

mum ; me

cheryl chin, you come here!

why?

i say COME HERE LAH.

WHY LA. *then i went there*

nah, see my phone.

FOR WHAT

SEE LA.

*i saw my piano's teachers name in her inbox and my heart was beating real fast* HAH, I FAIL AH?

you see for youself lah.

*disappointed face*

*i wanted to cry already but then she faster pass me the phone.* I want to cry ady lah. i failed right?

*staring at me* it felt like an hour. then she said, PASS LAH! :)

*screamed and jump here and there* then i quickly took her phone and check. FUH! IT WAS TRUE. i couldn't stop smiling after that.

thank god you didn't waste my rm450.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

i felt so so so relieved. this is the best thing that ever happened to me after learning piano since i was 5/6 years old. Now i'm qualified to be a teacher. I have students to teach right after pmr already! HOHOHO. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY. Aunty offered rm100 for my 2 cousins but i told her rm60. so kind right. HAHAHA.

my fav watermelon flavour of sticky!

OH WAIT, PMR IS NOT EVEN OVER LA. Okay bye. HAHAHA. I have to stop reminding myself what am i gonna do after pmr. -.-



i think i'm suffering from insonmia. normally, i can't sleep right away. nowadays it takes me half and hour thinking about rubbish then only boleh tidur. pek chek lah.

david villa is doing well in barcelona. he's still the best man! cintaku. HAHAHA.
now, what jersey should i get after pmr? DAMN LAHHH! when i really really wanna get one, i don't know which one to choose. DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN.

mulan ; your duty is to follow your heart.

Radioactive =]

HOLA! :)

Well, yesterday was a happy day. :) After so long. Though it was a very unproductive day. Didn't really study. Kept eating. X.X


I just googled 'Jadual Waktu PMR 2010' and I think it's the stupid-est one in fact. 4 days on exams and it finishes at almost 4 everyday, I would've preffered it to be in a week because now its one Tues, Wed, Thurs, then MON. :( AND AND AND 12 Oct is only for the Islam/Chinese/Tamil. SO, HURRRAYYYY! While they are still taking their exam, I guess i'm gonna drag my friends to Sunway. Like seriously. :D :D *how can you be thinking of all these when pmr is not even here yet*. HOOOHOOOHOO. I have so many things to do after pmr la okeh. So yeah.


And its exactly 18 days till PMR and 25 days till its all OVER. But then again, after enjoying my life-after-pmr for 1-2 months, it will be time time for form 4 already. Form 4 is definately not a 'honeymoon' year. :) I'm gonna study hard for form 5. hopefully, because i don't wanna regret after that. Though, the amount of tuitions i'm gonna have is going to make me sick. My whole life, i've only been to a tuition, which is BM. Hopefully i can cope lah.


LASTLY, 7A's is everything to me. I want the feeling of it like when i got 5A's for upsr again. It was pheonomenal. I was so happy that day. I just wouldn't want to be one of the one crying because i did not get my 7a's. I'm not putting any pressure on myself but just 7A's la. Though my aunt and uncles are telling me its not important, get B also nvm. HAHA. Spm only important. So yeah. No pressure. :) i've been studying this 2 weeks. One form of a subject everyday. But then again, the time of me studying is just a few hours. I end up sleeping or who knows, using the com? my itouch? or watching tv.

• So yeahhh. When it reaches to 10 days before pmr. I'm seriously not gonna touch the com. And i'm gonna ban my itouch. :)
• 3 days before pmr, no more tv. Yes. That's the way. I KNOW IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT. HEH.
• okay lah, it IS impossible.
• did i mention phineas and ferb is my daily cartoon programme? i watch it everyday. HAHAHAHA.
  

ManU is getting :( and :((. breaks my heart everytime i read the newspapers.
Man U vs Liverpool this Sunday.

Time for the emo side.

Going through one of the hardest time of my life. Its tough you know, everything is. I don't know what to do. My heart is empty, totally empty. What am I doing? Is it right or wrong? But, its time for me to not care. I love you but, i've gave up. Especially being jealous. You don't want me to be jealous right? But how could i not be? I only have you. The one i've been trusting my whole life. Now you say my attitude is bad? Then i'll stop being jealous and not care anymore.

I might be in depression. Well, deep down inside. I may seem happy in the outside but seriously? I'm not at all. Everything seems to be walking out from my life, one by one. It is heartbreaking, very. Everything seems to be my fault. Do you even know the pain I've gone through all these years? This 15 years of my life? Suddenly, I really don't see the point of living anymore. I've gave up on my own life. Yes, my own life. All there is in my mind is to eat, sleep and dreaming about the hot guys i'll never get. I call that lifeless. I really don't know what's the point of studying anymore.

How's my life gonna be? After pmr, Study for form 4? Then SPM? Then college or Form 6? Then uni? Then work? Then migrate to somewhere else? Then marry someone? Then born babies? Then die? and going through my whole life alone? yes? Is that what my life is all about? If yes, I rather die. Yeap, thats what which are going through my mind now. I don't see any positive side in fact.


enough cheryl. thats it.

Go Soo, you are too hot. <3

Sigh.

maybe you're not worth it, after all.

Nostalgia.

I was looking through my old pictures and my old blog, then I realized how much I missed everything, almost everything. Well, I was lucky. I had many good friends around me, I had a good sister. They all cared for me, a lot. But now, everything is turning backwards. Well, i still have a few good friends but i missed the past. I know time ain't turning back but i just wanna thank them for the good memories. :)

I used to have a friend, who sms-ed me almost everyday, who knows almost about my whole life, chat-ted with her almost everyday and i really loved her. We weren't even in the same class. And now, we are nothing. Yeah, things just happened and then it all changes. Now, I don't think backstabbing is nice, I guess everybody makes mistakes, so do I. Its time for me to learn how to forget and let go. Why would I want to live my life with hatred? I know how much you hate me now but still, I don't mind. You were my best friend, and along with 2 good friends, we were all very close but now, I'm not close to them anymore. They are happy together now so, yeah :) that's good.

if you are reading this, i guess you will be laughing, thinking 'serve you right'.

Then, I used to be very very close to my sister. She even sends me goodnight sms everyday last time. But now, the distance between us are getting further apart. I love her but I don't want to disturb her because I don't want to annoy her. She's living her life now with all the people she love a lot and I am happy for her. but Jie, I still love you. you will be my only one and the best.


as i blog this, i cried. what've I done? but then again, why am I blogging all these too?



I guess, its because they were people I think who used to make me happy. honestly, it was fun being with them. and if I made you all angry or whatsoever, I'M SORRY.



now, i still have a few good friends. I guess i have to keep reminding myself that i have to forgive and forget if anything happens, because i don't want to lose anybody again. I don't want to regret at last.



Dude, appreciate the friends you have now. The may make mistakes or hurt you but, let it go because you still need them, they are your sunshine apart from your family.

i've lost you too. sometimes, i feel like telling you how much i've loved you since then but i don't have the courage to ever do that. its tough you know. there's no second chance anymore, right? maybe all i can do is to keep it to myself.



i'll wait. maybe it will all happen again, maybe.

“It’s hard to love someone who can never be yours. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together, chances to share. See how it hurts? You’re only given chances… just chances.”

How many days more?

Well, I bet Form3's are taking the chance to study during the holidays. Well, I'm too. I will be starting my battle tomorrow. It's time to get serious, stop playing, study and hopefully get 7A's. There will be loads of time to play AFTER pmr right. :)



By the way, watched a few movies recently.

• The Last Song, is awesome. MUST WATCH.
  
• Step Up, the dance moves were the bomb.
  
• Grown Ups, quite funny lah.
  
• Phua Chu Kang the movie, okay? it wasn't THAT funny.
  
• Avatar 3D special edition, awesome pawsome.
  
• Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang, its quite nice lah.
  
• Vampires Suck (sucks)

Its coming, it is seriously coming.

3 days.

Heyloo. :) I'm back from Malacca after 3 days. And well, it was good but i definitely missed klang a lot.

1. Chicken rice ball, Cendol, Asam Laksa, Satay Celup and everything was good.

2. We actually spent 1 hour plus queuing up for Satay Celup. Like O.O

3. Bought a tee for kitschen, dress and shoes from nike. Nothing much to buy because there was too many people, it was so crowded especially the night market.

And,

4. hot guys. :D HEH.

Shakes head.

Hi people. :)

I'm getting fatter day by day. I eat six meals rather than 3 meals a day. EEEEEE. Anybody have any idea to go on a good diet? I really really really need one.


" just today i read one where a girl hasn’t eaten in 5 days and the only thing she ate today was about 50 calories. 50 FREAKING CALORIES. are you kidding me? that cannot sustain a body at all. she had been writing about how she’d been really tired and her period hadn’t come for 2 months… HELLO?! that means your body is slowly shutting down. you are killing yourself each day you eat your egg white with ketchup 50 calorie meal. every day you fast and don’t eat is one day closer to being hospitalized and eventually… dead.

the sad thing is this girl admitted to being anorexic and bulimic. she knows she has a problem. yet she doesn’t want to seek help for it at all. i know a lot of girls think they don’t have a problem and don’t admit to being anorexic or bulimic, but this girl openly admits it, and openly shuts down any help. it’s like she has a death wish. and it makes me so sad that someone could hate life so much, could hate themselves so much that they want to commit suicide by way of an eating disorder.

i just wish there was some way i could shake these girls awake and show them they are beautiful, they are loved. and by starving themselves, they are not solving problems, but creating so many more. i just can’t stand feeling helpless in this situation, watching all these tumblr ‘thinspiration’ blogs continue, like a cult, sucking more people into them and killing off our generation. "

well, i'm certainly not going for THAT, but i guess losing a few kg-s will be a good thing. Holidays are coming, that's even worse. People keep claiming that i'm 'THIN' which sometimes makes me feel insulted. sighs. i just can't seem to control myself.

I’m so scared to weigh myself. Each time the numbers are kept the same and do not see a smaller number, I feel sad. An infinite sense of guilt comes over me, is horrible. It’s horrible not being able to lose weight. And then I have friends around me who are so thin.