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I was studying and then I checked my Facebook and I found a picture,

and after reading it. I am now very pissed off. Seriously man. WHAT DO WE DESERVE TO BE CALLED AS AN 'ANJING'. I'M NOT A DOG OKAY. I'M A HUMAN. WHAT RIGHT do you have to ask us to go back to China and India?

WHAT??
I was BORNED IN MALAYSIA.
MY PARENTS WERE BORNED IN MALAYSIA.
MY GRANDPARENTS WERE BORNED IN MALAYSIA.
MY GREATGRANDPARENTS WERE BORNED IN MALAYSIA.
And I think my GREATGREATGREATGREATGREATGRANDparents were from China.
So please, don't simply call us a dog. And I'm shocked they are not taking any action. What is this man? RACISM LAH. Racism in Malaysia has been going on for years and even though the 1Malaysia concept is introduced, racism IS STILL GOING ON. I forgot the motto but whatever lah because it is not important anyway.

And please don't say as if Chinese and Indians owe you all something. WHAT BENEFIT DO WE GET IN MALAYSIA? We don't even get a single discount when we buy a house. Not even 1% of the 7% bumiputeras get when they buy a house. Chinese and Indians don't even have high chances on getting a scholarship eventhough they get high scores in SPM/STPM. If I had a chance, i wouldn't want to stay in Malaysia.

I myself, have Malay friends. AND WE GET ALONG WELL. We don't fight. I have no discrimination towards my friends because to me, we are all the same! But why are all the elders doing this? WHY? Hello, if you want the future generation to be not racist then you all should set a good example. WE SHOULD TOLERATE. Or not why are we learning Sejarah? FOR FUN AH? WASTING MY TIME READING THE TEXTBOOKS AND NOW I CAN SEE THAT RACISM is happening everywhere. What's the USE?

Like today's newspaper, TheStar's header, "ZERO RACISM". Oh please, i think that's pretty much a joke. A VERY FUNNY ONE in fact. WE ARE ALL, racist. Just admit it lah.

When Namewee did those videos, well I know its a little offensive but he had to say sorry in public and he DID. What did this headmistress do? THE WAY SHE ASKS US, THE DOGS TO GO BACK TO OUR COUNTRY IS JUST SO OFFENSIVE. She's a HEADMISTRESS. H-E-A-D-M-I-S-T-R-E-S-S and now they proclaim her as a MANGSA.

Sorry to say but this is a little unfair. If you're a Malay reading this, I sorry but these are all facts and I'm totally not discrimating my friends. Just giving my opinion on the comment in the picture.

So please lah, if you all still think that discriminating Chinese and Indian people is the right thing to do, then please go back to YOUR OWN COUNTRY. I bet your anchestors were also from Arab right? Seriously, BIAS lah can.

I just don't like them saying 'Anjing-anjing balik ke China dan India lebih baiklah'. WE HAVE OUR OWN DIGNITY. I've done a Ringkasan for my last exam saying how PERPADUAN is something that our country is very proud of. But seriously, nah. We are not even ONEMALAYSIA. How to reach 'SEMANGAT PERPADUAN'? More to SEMANGAT PERKAUMAN.

In fact, I think if I go back to China, I will be discriminated there because i am a MALAYSIAN. Why still ask us to go back to negara asal? Unless Malaysians don't belong in Malaysia lah.

"As I read all this, I tremble with fear. I love my country and long to return. I am willing to take a 70% pay cut. I am willing to face a demotion. I honestly want to contribute my expertise in complex financial services and capital markets. But really, is there a future for me, for my children and for their children? I am truly frightened.

I can deal with the lack of democracy, the lack of press freedom, the ISA, our inefficient and bureaucratic civil service, our awful manners and even a little corruption. But I cannot deal with racism in my homeland. "

ENOUGH!

I hope to sing it one fine day

To me, both of these are so far the best version's of Because You Loved Me. :)

Destiny

This happened in China. :(

R.I.P Evelyn's Grandma.




We are all going to DIE, it all depends on, WHEN. I believe that death is fated. You wouldn't know when you are gonna die. Like my uncle, he passed away suddenly because he had leukemia @ the age of 40 plus and he was rather a very good man. A dato' we looked up to in the family. Who would've expected all these to happen? Nobody, except God. I've had thoughts about how am gonna live if my loved ones pass away before me. Am I gonna commit suicide? I don't think I will. As the saying goes, 'Life still goes on' but I don't think i will be strong enough to not cry and be depressed.



Dying may be a good OR bad thing.


It is good when someone is suffering from a disease and there's no more way to cure it. Seriously, do you think it's nice to suffer, eating all those disgusting medicine, unable to walk, unable to talk? and you're just living because you don't wanna see your family/friends being sad. That's not a right thing to do at all. Even though how much we can't live without them, we should just let them go. At least they feel happier in heaven. Of course, its tough but, dying is the only way to stop all these.

“People fear death even more than pain. It’s strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend.”


It is bad, especially when someone who is good and kind dies. Sometimes, I wonder why do all good people die so fast? God shouldn't take them away that fast, in fact, why are all the criminals and villains not dying? The ones I hate the most are the idiots who kidnap girls, rape them and sometimes, kill them. Come on lah, why do they wanna have sex so badly? I know its because of their hormones but as a girl, its just so unfair okay. Getting pregnant means losing everything, especially your dignity. Besides, all these criminals always escape, getting away with whatever crime they did. They are the ones who should be sentenced to death, not the good ones.


Coming to think of it, maybe God just wanted to let them learn a lesson and change but nah, I don't think they will. Or maybe, they might turn into an animal next time so yeah, giving them a chance to live.

I believe in Heaven and Hell. ; or what you call afterlife.

I don’t think heaven is a place but more like an alternate state of being. Time isn’t the same. Physical existance isn’t the same. It is complete union with God’s love. Paradise. I think my family and friends will be there. God told us that we will be given new, glorified bodies at some point. I don’t really try to understand it too much, because I doubt I can comprehend it. I’ll find out soon enough. Life is very short, after all.

I believe that hell exists. I don’t believe that God “sends” people to hell; rather, people send themselves to hell by completely rejecting God’s love. The idea of being utterly separated from the love of God for all eternity is one of the most terrifying things I can imagine.

I also believe in purgatory. To make sure everyone understands, purgatory is not like “limbo” or something like that. It is a phase that most people’s souls have to go though before they enter the kingdom of heaven. It is where we clean up our souls until they are pearly white, ready to enter complete communion with God. Also, everyone in purgatory eventually goes to heaven. If you’re going to go to hell, you just go there.

I’m not sure if I believe in different circles of hell. Never really thought about it. I plan on not going there, though, so I won’t worry about it.

“When do you think people die? When they are shot through the heart by the bullet of a pistol? No. When they are ravaged by an incurable disease? No. When they drink a soup made from a poisonous mushroom!? No! It’s when… they are forgotten.”



Wow. I couldn't believe myself. Such a long post. Everything came out of my mind out of a sudden. So yeah, do not waste this gift. You are alive, which means you've done good deeds during your past life. Take it as a gift from God. Spend your time doing what you think is right with your loved ones. The clock is ticking. :)

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Amazing sh!z

I Stand Alone

sol·i·tude

[sol-i-tood, -tyood]

–noun

1. the state of being or living alone; seclusion: to enjoy one’s solitude.
2. remoteness from habitations, as of a place; absence of human activity.
3. a lonely, unfrequented place

- Emotional isolation a term used to describe a state of isolation where the individual is emotionally isolated, but may have a well functioning social network.

Getting On My Nerves

Have you ever came to a situation that you've done nothing wrong and then you see people making up stories by criticizing you? I've been through that, too many times I couldn't even count.


I really don't understand why I'm blamed for nothing. I know i'm not blamed directly but oh come on its so obvious. As someone who doesn't know anything and listening to one side of the 'story', you should think a little more maturely. Hello? Do you know the feeling of being misunderstood is just bulleffing shitty? I KNOW YOU HAVE YOUR OWN OPINION but I DO TOO so you should like ASK YOU and that also depends whether i would want to even explain or tell you or not.



Sometimes, I just don't like all these things. Come on lah, get a life. The reason why I stopped explaining when people ask me 'WHY?' is because i'm sick of it. I don't really bother if they believe me or not because a wise person wouldn't judge something without finding out the truth. Pointing fingers is just not the right thing to do.


Why do I have to be the reason 'why' when somebody cry? I feel like smacking their face when someone ask me that. -.-



The reason why I'm blogging about this is because it suddenly came into my mind. Weird right. Nyeheh.


i've lost the courage to believe in everything. i need to find it, because i know it's somewhere.

Awesome. I accidentally removed my links. -.- damn.

U-Tube

If you are human, watch this video. Its berrry berrry sad. :(

Ask yourself, are you ever gonna do this for the person you love?

The clock is ticking.

Don't feel like blogging publicly anymore. There's too many things to keep to myself. :) Shall update this blog when i'm free.





btw, Trials is over. but PMR is yet to come.

You're my sunshine, My Only Sunshine.

retarded with tonnes of sense of humour.

Last paper, Kemahiran Hidup. :\

I don't know what all these means. You are just so attractive, get it? Your smile, EEEEEE.


After trials, I guess I will blog quite often because this is where I crap out everything, the only non-living thing I can write on without feeling retarded.


Playing piano is bliss. :)

Note to self : There's no use being nostalgic anymore ah ryl. What's done is done. Don't look back to the past, look forward.

You can't play on broken strings.

Maths and KH to go. :)



3-0 for ManU. Awesomeee! :)

pasar malam soon. :D :D :D :D :D

ByeByeBye

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. we all looked SO INNOCENT.


Happy Sunday everybody! :)

Trials is starting tomorrow, subjects? BM and SEJ. Yeap.
Goodluck to all you PMRsuckers! :)



I don't feel like hitting the books right now. It makes me sick. Heh :]

• i need plenty of enough sleep this entire week. :) I don't care if i can't finish studying.

• i have to get 7A's for trials, i know that's tough.

• stop watching so much teevee.
  

Officially not going Cambodia for Hari Raya with a lot of relatives. PMR, THANK YOU MAN SERIOUSLY. -.- I wanna go Angkor Watt lah! Heard that they are gonna close that place soon. wtH.

So it's Bali/Chiang Mai and Korea. :)
I'm so so so so so looking forward to holidays la can and the afterjoy of pmr.



note to self : just tahan during this 2 months. It's all gonna be over soon. :)




P.S : The to-do-list after PMR is extremely LONG.

P.SS : I PUASA-ED. Okay lah maybe not BUT i didn't eat from 8pm to 4pm the next day. Yet, I drank water. Cannot tahan without water lah. :X

Wah liow, 10.45 dy. Off to study. TAAAA! :)

The ugly truth

1. I've got another new dress. I guess it's my 18/19th one already. :X


2. Ahhh, because of the stupid PMR and *something*, I can't go to Cambodia. -.- I very pek chek now. I wanna visit Angkor Wat!! Who cares if there's no shopping. Screw PMR lah.


3. I can't wait anymore for the trips during the holidays. I wanna get my arse outta Malaysia now man. Need a break from everything.


4. Studying every single day sucks. It makes me feel so normal to study already, last time? I would've commit suicide.


5. Maybe staying away from the crowd is a good idea afterall. I'm just nobody to everybody. Yeap. :/


6. klah,ciao. toodles.

Reminiscing.

I always refrain myself from clicking on your Facebook page, because I always have the fear I will either see something I can’t handle seeing, or fall for you all over again.

I’ve been in love with you this whole time.


Maybe I should just go away from the crowd. I don't belong there. I could go through all these alone.
I know I'm very demanding but the fact that that's how I am, I can't possibly change it no?

I truly think that everyone is good looking. There are girls at my school who don’t have many friends because a lot of people consider them ugly. I think they’re beautiful. I think all girls are beautiful except myself. I never see an ugly girl unless I’m looking at my reflection. What hurts more than thinking I’m extremely ugly?

I’m very nostalgic. I keep longing in the past and past memories. I really wished i could go through it all again. i really love how things were. why do things have to change?

Even mummy has facebook, *shakes head*

I just realized it's 12am already. Ah. Wasted 2 hours with the computer doing nothing rather than studying.


I guess i ate TOO much today. :)
Bought myself a sandal. It looks hot. Heh.

Is it just me, or you?

My mum is sort of asking me to not go to school.
But i'm wondering if i should go or not.

Okayyy, what happened? Why is everything upside down? LOL.

PMR is seriously coming already. No more saying 'I'll study later'.
I remember telling myself I will study when there's 150 day's left.
After 150 days passed, I told myself 100 days.
After 100 days, I only started now, 60-70.

Procrastination almost brought me to death. Now that I realize, i should really start studying but i guess using the computer once a while wouldn't really matter. I can't imagine how i'm gonna cry if I fail to get 7A's. Yeah. I don't want any regrets. Even if I didn't get 7A's, at least i know i tried. :)


3K! :)

There's no use sitting down waiting for God to help you get your 7A's. We all have to study ourselves, unless you're already a genius.

Don't say that you CAN'T because NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
The word itself says I'M POSSIBLE.

JUST DO IT.
Heh. Nike. :D

Jump high and Aim for the sky.

God will always be right there for all of us.

Face it.

PMR is COMING.



NERD MODE : SO ON.
I can't believe myself, I'm actually putting an effort to study. I just don't want myself to regret after i get my results. STUDYING IS like the only thing i'm sort of doing. I shall make it my new 'hooobby!'.

So yeah, ciao!

NyehnyehniBUBU.

Yeah, I ended up having the tickets to MTV world stage and, AHHH. IT WAS THE BEST ONE SO FAR, it was like Super Junior. :) But during Super Junior I was still very blur, so HEH. :) I'm so so glad I went for the concert. AHHHH!

I stood for 9 hours, did not drink for 7 hours, soaked wet in the rain for 6 hours, waited so long for each performance, but it was all worth it. I actually went into the X zone! So like yeah! It was in front of the damn stage. :) Sneaked in.

I guess the pictures will do all the talking.

UTT IS SO HOTTTT.







Standing out since 3 made me bored la kay.






New VJ. Hot right!


BUNKFACE ROCKED! MALAYSIA BOLEH LA!


One word : HOT! Their dancing was awesome! Finally saw NOBODY live :)

Tokio Hotel was crazeh! BILL AND TOM IS HOT LA.

Ohohoh , they're telling me its beautiful!

Katy Perry. Pwetty. 'california gurls were undeniable' :D


I still think about the concert almost everyday until now. :\


Adeline's Birthday :





Lala-mui.S



P.S : Saw many many many hot guys during that day. AHHHH. TAKE ME BACK ! TAKE ME BACK. Can't wait for next year.

P.SS : There were couples standing everywhere around me. EEEEEEE. Being so intimate. :P